I am right now sitting on the sofa at my friend's house in Valencia. I moved here as PG a month back, but they are now more family than friends. Their little kid Lava keep my days alive, and my friend is more like a sister to me now. I can never thank them enough for letting me stay at their home. I can't even now imagine staying alone in an apartment. Days are going by, but there is some void somewhere.
Yes Kuts, I miss you more than anything else in this world. The feeling that you are far far away from me is killing me. I am craving for your presence more than anything..... Though we talk everyday, though I know that we can meet in another month ....... I just can't explain this feeling, this mental trauma..... Maybe because I am unsure about future, I feel as if the passing time and day is taking away from me something precious........ the time which I could have spent with you...
I have been away from family before, but I never had this kind of feeling then. I am thinking why the state of mind is so different this time.......I can't find an answer now....
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Waiting List One
Guruvayoor appande leelavilasangal. I had to go back home after my visa stamping in Chennai, so that I could go to Guruvayoor temple with my family the next day. I told travel team that I would book my return ticket and I got a "waiting list one" in AC three tier. The train was at 8:30 in the night and I reached there by 7:30. Confident that my ticket would have become atleast an RAC i went on to look at the chart, only to find out that it was still on "waiting list one" :-( . I rushed to the information desk who told me to wait for the TT and there is nothing they could do as the train was full.
The TT came and I ran to him telling him about the issue. Already swarmed by many others he listened to me as I was the only girl among them. He told me that there is nothing he can do and I will have to either travel in General compartment or get a ticket for some other train. Totally dejected and scared I stood there only to see another TT of the sleeper compartment walking by. He calmly listened to my plight and asked me to follow him. Happy to know that he was a Malayali I went with him and got into the train in the sleeper compartment. He asked me to be seated in the berth right next to his and by the time he would find out if there is any vacant berth. .
I had a sigh of relief when the train started to move even though I was scared to death as evident from my face . The passenger next to me knew that something was wrong. She was a middle aged woman traveling with her kid and her younger brother. She knew something was wrong and began talking to me and even offered part of her dinner. I told her the whole story frantically waiting for the TT to return. I told her I would sleep on the floor and I didn't have any problem with that. I shall use my dupatta as bedsheet. The TT returned, this time he was the one swarmed with people and I realized there were more like me in the train. He came to me to tell me that there is one seat which will become vacant after 4:00 in the morning. I told him about my plan to sleep on the floor and he just smiled.
After a few minutes came loud noise from the same compartment. There were a set of college students who looked like Gundas to me. They were singing strange songs and making hell a lot of noise which annoyed other passengers. They were walking to and fro in the compartment and some passengers even complained to the TT. This continued when finally came time to sleep. I was about to sleep on the floor, when the younger brother of the woman,offered his berth to me. I told him it was perfectly fine with me to sleep on the floor, but he insisted. He told me that the college guys didn't seem to be so good and insisted again that I sleep in his berth. Finally I agreed and he slept on the floor. The woman gave him her child's small quilt to sleep on.
I woke in the morning to see them pack their things. I thanked them profusely and asked them about their whereabouts. They were from GURUVAYOOR!!!!! I stayed still for a second............Guruvayoor appande leelavilasangal. As the grand finale to the events the TT was from my hometown, he knew my father . He even gave me a note with which I could reimburse my AC fare. Even though it was after 2 -3 months, I got it back.
The TT came and I ran to him telling him about the issue. Already swarmed by many others he listened to me as I was the only girl among them. He told me that there is nothing he can do and I will have to either travel in General compartment or get a ticket for some other train. Totally dejected and scared I stood there only to see another TT of the sleeper compartment walking by. He calmly listened to my plight and asked me to follow him. Happy to know that he was a Malayali I went with him and got into the train in the sleeper compartment. He asked me to be seated in the berth right next to his and by the time he would find out if there is any vacant berth. .
I had a sigh of relief when the train started to move even though I was scared to death as evident from my face . The passenger next to me knew that something was wrong. She was a middle aged woman traveling with her kid and her younger brother. She knew something was wrong and began talking to me and even offered part of her dinner. I told her the whole story frantically waiting for the TT to return. I told her I would sleep on the floor and I didn't have any problem with that. I shall use my dupatta as bedsheet. The TT returned, this time he was the one swarmed with people and I realized there were more like me in the train. He came to me to tell me that there is one seat which will become vacant after 4:00 in the morning. I told him about my plan to sleep on the floor and he just smiled.
After a few minutes came loud noise from the same compartment. There were a set of college students who looked like Gundas to me. They were singing strange songs and making hell a lot of noise which annoyed other passengers. They were walking to and fro in the compartment and some passengers even complained to the TT. This continued when finally came time to sleep. I was about to sleep on the floor, when the younger brother of the woman,offered his berth to me. I told him it was perfectly fine with me to sleep on the floor, but he insisted. He told me that the college guys didn't seem to be so good and insisted again that I sleep in his berth. Finally I agreed and he slept on the floor. The woman gave him her child's small quilt to sleep on.
I woke in the morning to see them pack their things. I thanked them profusely and asked them about their whereabouts. They were from GURUVAYOOR!!!!! I stayed still for a second............Guruvayoor appande leelavilasangal. As the grand finale to the events the TT was from my hometown, he knew my father . He even gave me a note with which I could reimburse my AC fare. Even though it was after 2 -3 months, I got it back.
502 and me
The good old Engg college days. It was my b'day eve and I knew my roomies were busy planning for by b'day celebs. Suddenly came the news that S5 results were out. We went to the canteen for the regular 4:00pm tea and snacks and one of my friends went to see the result board. He came back to canteen with a strange look on his face which made my heart beat faster..he said "502" looking at me. I couldn't believe my ears, nor cud my friends sitting there. I felt as if the whole world was reeling around me and in between I could hear the faint voice of my another friend saying " You will get it in reval". My thoughts went far . How can it happen? I had attempted all the questions and didn't mess up any of them. I had more than 90% for internals and I loved that subject. Now even if I give for reval , the result will come only after the supple exam, which means I will have to write the supple. Oh God is this real...is this happening to me...but why..... I stared at the result board for a long time that day.
Totally lost I went back to hostel .I called home to tell them about it,on my way back. My dad laughed aloud and said Oh thats great , you can learn the subject more thoroughly now. He has never been anxious or concerned about my studies or my marks and always gave me the freedom to do what I wanted and I love him for that. My mom was a bit shocked and told me that she had been to an astrologer recenlty and after looking at my horoscope he siad , that I am going to have some bad time in academics. Anyways I knew this would be the reaction and they will be supportive as always.
I tried not to loose my compose infront of others. I slept early that day and was woken up at 12:00 by my roomies. There were more than 25 people in my room, all my friends in LH, to celebrate my b'day. Lot of gifts, cake cutting and wishes followed. After everyone left and my roomies slept I cried my heart out...only to wake up with a puffy eyes the next day. I didn't feel like going to college that day, but I did. My good friends kept consoling me and also I could hear other hush voices saying " Did you know, she got a supple". Slowly I started accepting the fact and days went by. I gave it for reval and also started studying. I wrote the suple exam and weeks later came the day the reval results were getting published in internet. I rushed to a cafe near by with my friend and was frantically hitting the keyboard to get to the webpage. I scrolled my hands to reach my register number and the marks showed 76. With a sigh of relief I looked at other details and then my heart missed several beats. Status shows " Failed" , right next to my marks. I was confused. What' s this now? I enquired and came to know that I haven't passed and the marks are that of my first reval . What's this first reval?
To enquire further I reached the office of Vice chancelllor of our University. Now hear goes his explanation. My marks after first reval is 76, which is more than 25 marks than original. Such papers are sent for a second reval. My second reval mark is 48(Note that pass mark is 45) . Now second reval mark being the base, they find out the difference between 48 and the original mark and 48 and first reval mark. Whichever is smaller they take the average of those marks which becomes your final mark. The average came to 43, which made me fail :-( even after passing in both revals . Totally mad, iiritated and annoyed I started fighting with the chancellor. He told me that he has been trying to change this rule and will present this matter in their next meeting and he understands that it is a stupid rule. I just walked out of his room.
Being a member of Training and Placement cell in the college, this meant more than a mere supple to me. I couldn't write many of the recuitment tests due to my "standing supple", even though I had more than 75% marks altogether. Finally by the the time supple results came and I cleared it, many of my friends were placed in different companies. But I didn't have any bad feelings at that time. I had learned a lot about life and I just waited for my turn. That Friday morning was my day, as UST based in Tvm came for recruitment. I passed the aptitude,english cum puzzle round and then came GD. After which came the interview round. The HR guy asked me about my role model. I had hundreds of things to tell him why I considered my Grandmother my role model. I was seleted in final 28 and had a final interview at Tvm by the then COO. The news that I got the job came when I was at home in my pooja room, which was after we passed out from college and were back home.
UST was just a growing company that time with lesser visibility in the global market , which soon changed. UST helped me make many of my dreams come true. I was near my home and family and would go home once every month. I flew to US One and half years after joining. My mom had seen the same astrologer again who told her that I would go abroad after Sep 28th of that year. You believe it or not, I flew on the 29th of Sep. I went on to stay in US for another year , which helped me accomplish many of my dreams which I had nutured from college days.
Looking back at my trail from this point in my life , after the 502 incident, I feel God deliberately did so, strengthening my belief that things will finally fall in place for sure.
Totally lost I went back to hostel .I called home to tell them about it,on my way back. My dad laughed aloud and said Oh thats great , you can learn the subject more thoroughly now. He has never been anxious or concerned about my studies or my marks and always gave me the freedom to do what I wanted and I love him for that. My mom was a bit shocked and told me that she had been to an astrologer recenlty and after looking at my horoscope he siad , that I am going to have some bad time in academics. Anyways I knew this would be the reaction and they will be supportive as always.
I tried not to loose my compose infront of others. I slept early that day and was woken up at 12:00 by my roomies. There were more than 25 people in my room, all my friends in LH, to celebrate my b'day. Lot of gifts, cake cutting and wishes followed. After everyone left and my roomies slept I cried my heart out...only to wake up with a puffy eyes the next day. I didn't feel like going to college that day, but I did. My good friends kept consoling me and also I could hear other hush voices saying " Did you know, she got a supple". Slowly I started accepting the fact and days went by. I gave it for reval and also started studying. I wrote the suple exam and weeks later came the day the reval results were getting published in internet. I rushed to a cafe near by with my friend and was frantically hitting the keyboard to get to the webpage. I scrolled my hands to reach my register number and the marks showed 76. With a sigh of relief I looked at other details and then my heart missed several beats. Status shows " Failed" , right next to my marks. I was confused. What' s this now? I enquired and came to know that I haven't passed and the marks are that of my first reval . What's this first reval?
To enquire further I reached the office of Vice chancelllor of our University. Now hear goes his explanation. My marks after first reval is 76, which is more than 25 marks than original. Such papers are sent for a second reval. My second reval mark is 48(Note that pass mark is 45) . Now second reval mark being the base, they find out the difference between 48 and the original mark and 48 and first reval mark. Whichever is smaller they take the average of those marks which becomes your final mark. The average came to 43, which made me fail :-( even after passing in both revals . Totally mad, iiritated and annoyed I started fighting with the chancellor. He told me that he has been trying to change this rule and will present this matter in their next meeting and he understands that it is a stupid rule. I just walked out of his room.
Being a member of Training and Placement cell in the college, this meant more than a mere supple to me. I couldn't write many of the recuitment tests due to my "standing supple", even though I had more than 75% marks altogether. Finally by the the time supple results came and I cleared it, many of my friends were placed in different companies. But I didn't have any bad feelings at that time. I had learned a lot about life and I just waited for my turn. That Friday morning was my day, as UST based in Tvm came for recruitment. I passed the aptitude,english cum puzzle round and then came GD. After which came the interview round. The HR guy asked me about my role model. I had hundreds of things to tell him why I considered my Grandmother my role model. I was seleted in final 28 and had a final interview at Tvm by the then COO. The news that I got the job came when I was at home in my pooja room, which was after we passed out from college and were back home.
UST was just a growing company that time with lesser visibility in the global market , which soon changed. UST helped me make many of my dreams come true. I was near my home and family and would go home once every month. I flew to US One and half years after joining. My mom had seen the same astrologer again who told her that I would go abroad after Sep 28th of that year. You believe it or not, I flew on the 29th of Sep. I went on to stay in US for another year , which helped me accomplish many of my dreams which I had nutured from college days.
Looking back at my trail from this point in my life , after the 502 incident, I feel God deliberately did so, strengthening my belief that things will finally fall in place for sure.
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